Purging

If you, take a moment, to think of all the things you don't need, you will see how empty your life truly is. We fill our lives with "things" and people that we no longer need. We never take the time to remove what is no longer beneficial. We pretend we a are living fulfilled lives. However, there is no room for fulfillment, because we retain what keeps us "content."

Don't get me wrong, it's perfectly ok to always remain "content." However, I believe there is so much  more than that. We become so scared to move on, and get rid of what is safe. It's so scary to say: "my life is full, but it's not full of what I want. We are terrified of drawing that "line in the sand" and admitting that we want and require more.

The word "selfish" has such a negative connotation with it. It's socially unacceptable to be "selfish." However, "selfish" and "stingy" are two different human traits. I agree that it is unacceptable to be unwilling to give or to share. Yet, what can you actually give or share if you're deficient in what you need. You can't share what you, yourself, don't have. ... in that is where the problem lies.

We give what we don't have, and the recipient ends up with "junk." - How do you inspire someone when you haven't been inspired, yourself. How do you make someone feel special when you haven't special in years? -simply you can't That's when it feels "mutually beneficial." We accept what the other has to give, no matter how much, or little that is, and we pass on what we are left with. Thus we both feel content.

I've loved, and been liked in return. I've cared, and been adored in return. I've cried, and had my tears dried, instead of the pain being eased.

Many of us fill in the missing pieces with things. My mom died, and I brought a brand new car. My forever came to an end, and went on a 2 month shopping spree. My car doesn't love me. My clothes are inanimate, and my forever could care less.

So it's time to let some friends walk, get rid of many things, let go some old memories (no matter how cherished I thought they were) . it's time to truly purge and turn the page, from content to fulfilled....